Friday's Grief Song, 07.26.24
"I will not say I am all right for you"
Slo o o w l y coming back to sharing grief songs with y’all…
I’ve been needing music more than ever right now and YET I keep forgetting to put music on that I enjoy b/c it’s mostly toddler requests, which vacillate between Poor Unfortunate Souls and Let it Go, but yeh "frozen fractals all around” does have a certain poetry to it.
This week’s song is in honor of all of the rage and grief many of us are feeling at this fucking fuck of a country over the ongoing US funded Palestinian genocide where babies who could be my babies are being taken out by snipers- can you even imagine? A bullet to your baby’s heart? Straight to their fucking heart. And meanwhile the cowards in congress all applauding terrorist Netanyahu.
This week’s song is Bloody Mother Fucking Asshole, by Martha Wainwright.
Thank you Martha for this song.
Listen here.
Enjoy!
Bloody Mother Fucking Asshole
Written by: Martha Wainwright
Martha Wainwright
2005
Poetry has no place for a heart that's a whore
And I'm young and I'm strong
But I feel old and tired
Overfired
And I've been poked and stoked
It's all smoke, there's no more fire
Only desire
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are
You say my time here has been some sort of joke
That I've been messing around
Some sort of incubating period
For when I really come around but I'm cracking up
And you have no idea
No idea how it feels to be on your own
In your own home with the fucking phone
And the mother of gloom
In your bedroom standing over your head
With her hand in your head
With her hand in your head
I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth
Oh, I wish, I wish, I wish I was born a man
So I could learn how to stand up for myself
Like those guys with guitars
I've been watching in bars
Who've been stamping their feet to a different beat
To a different beat
To a different beat
I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth
You bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh, you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh, you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh, you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh, you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh, you bloody...
I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are